"Good Luck Finding a Job."

Over the past couple years, I had been buying the cheapest headphones I could just for the sake of saving pennies.  I went through a couple sets because the connection in the jack went bad, but deferring the cost was a good thing and the sound on them wasn't terrible.  I bought a new set today for about 6 dollars from a store other than where I'd purchased the previous sets.  They were a different brand and it turned out they sounded terrible, so I took them back. Things aren't quite as desperate as they were a year ago, so I figured I'd splurge in the hopes of better quality and durability.  They had a pair made by JVC for 12 bucks.  It's a good name so I figured it was worth a shot.  Lo and behold they nearly blew my ears out and still are as I type (Luna, Indian Summer), and for the prices, the quality of the sound is pretty awesome.  It's not tinny at all which I'd say is the most common problem with cheap headphones that fit in your ear.  

Anyway... did I mention that part of what these folks who won't identify themselves have been doing is to make me feel like I'm always surrounded by the enemy?  The fact is, I'm not positive who the main culprit in the pscyhological torture I've been subject to is as no one has openly claimed any responsibility.  All things considered, though, my best guess is that it is the F.B.I. that has been the leading force in making my life miserable over the past few years, apparently working in conjunction with other extremist groups while making a complete mockery the U.S. Constitution.  I don't know for sure, but I've got blame it all on someone.  In regard to being surrounded by the enemy, they do stupid shit like throwing guys in Michigan jerseys at me.  Sometimes they just kind of materialize and pop out from around corners just at the right moment to look at me.  Oooooooo.  About a month ago, I guess, a light-skinned black guy in such a shirt came into the library and made a pouty, mocking face at me.  As I said, it could all be a charade by the C.I.A. or whoever, but I have no choice but to assume F.B.I.  Lots of people are getting quite a kick out of fucking with John and watching him suffer.  Hmmmmm...

Well, I got a small piece of good news yesterday and wrote someone an e-mail about it, which was read, like all of my "private" communications, by several different people, but primarily the FBI, I'm sure.  The e-mail mentioned my experience with this lofty institution of integrity and efficiency and my 20 years of blacklisting by extreme right-wingers.  Sure enough, right on que, that Michigan fan showed up, but this time I didn't notice that he mocked me at all.  In fact, he didn't look too happy.  He sat down at a table where a moderately attractive light-skinned black woman who I'd never seen here before was sitting.  He soon after moved to a different table.  I remind you: the seed of all of this is an interracial relationship from twenty-plus years ago.  I was listening to my new 12-dollar headphones(I'm pretty sure it was The Song Remains the Same) when she walked by.  She wasn't on the phone and I saw her lips utter one sentence as I faintly heard it.  That woman--a light-skinned black women who quite obviously is either the product of a mixed relationship, or one generation removed--said as she blew by me at my computer, "Good luck finding a job." 

Hmmmm...I'm I to take that as confirmation that the F.B.I. is taking an active role in denying me life, liberty and happiness?  Really now?  I've never even been arrested, let alone convicted.  How fascinating. 

People have called me an idealist at various points throughout my adult life.  I think maybe it's in my blood.   Maybe it's just an unconscious attempt to be as unlike my brother as possible.  When family arguments came up, he would say, "There you go, taking the high road again."  I have a natural inclination against corruption and at this juncture I find myself compelled to narrow the field of groups I might offer my alliance according to how little they desecrate the U.S. Constitution.  I don't like extremist groups and mobs, but at least they aren't making a big bullshit show about what they really do.  Furthermore, and more to the point, going by what I've experienced over the past 3 years and the fact that I'm forced to assume who the main source is, I can safely say that there is no group that comes anywhere near the F.B.I. in terms of not just descrating, but positively defecating on civil rights guarenteed in the consitution, a document they're sworn to uphold. 

Some stranger recently mentioned that soon I'll be "happy as a lark."  When's that going to happen?  A couple other folks actually insinuated that I'm lucky?  Oh, really?  I don't see it.  In the meantime, I'll keep on course and assume that if all the fantastic things that have been suggested are true they will come up and bite me in the ass.  I have no knowledge of consciously, willfully, or knowingly volunteering for any of this shit as it has been suggested I did.  I have reaped no benefit whatsoever from the torture I've been subject to as has also been suggested.  None.  And you won't fool me into thinking so the same way you can't fool me into thinking I'm guilty of any of the positively absurd allegations.

My full time job is pursuing a book deal.  If someone's got a better idea and can approach me openly and directly like a normal human being, I'm open to suggestions.  I tried volunteering in S.F. to network and got fucked with there.  In addition, I might pursue opportunities for writers is criminal defense law.  Think I might have some "luck finding a job" that way?  Hmmmm...I wonder if those kinds of lawyers have associations.   Oh, I've got so much to keep me busy these days.

Joseph C. Zoccali, Clearwater, Florida; Rick Wilson, Niles, Ohio; Christine Faranda, Cleveland, Ohio; Len Spector; Marc Greece, A&E Networks; Reverend David Plank, Palatine Bridge, NY; Carrie (Plank) Bruno, Queens, NY; Cynthia Green, Tech Recruiter; Sioux Logan, Red Stream Technologies; Mike Tricario, MTV; Sean Newman, Columbus, Ohio; Jim Reed, Columbus, Ohio; Zynga; Marty Eggert, Cleveland, Ohio; Kathy Haxton, Cleveland, Ohio, St. Joe’s Medical  Center, Warren, Ohio; Coleman Professional Services, Warren, Ohio; Laura McCormick

An Pham, anpham1111@gmail.com; Anna Stepnova, stepnova@aol.com; Barbara Anne Wolf, wolf.barbara.anne@gmail.com,  (415) 812-4926; Brian Montague, jetbpm@aol.com; Charles Crites, critesfam@sbcglobal.net; EHSOH, lovycera@gmail.com; Elizabeth Nicolosi, elizabethnicolosi@hotmail.com; Kristy Guertin, guertk@spu.edu; Meagan Franz, meaganfranz@hotmail.com; Miyako Abe, mtea2006@yahoo.com; Nora Salah, nsalah01@yahoo.com; Teresa Keller, teresa@rtwwithus.org; Natasha Warder; 

Kathleen Kashay; Erica Agyeman; Darcy Estes; Alison Victor; Tracy Dietz; Kaitlin McGaw; 

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