It's my understanding Dana Carvey lives right up the road. Have you ever seen him do a stand-up routine? I never had until a few years ago when one was floating around on Comedy Central or something. Before that, I didn't know he did stand-up. I laughed hard pretty much throughout the act; side-splitting stuff. He might never get his fair due in the annals of comedy history, but living North Bay surely makes up for it, right? Maybe you should get him to come down and harass me a little since I'm an independent thinker. We can talk about New York and chop some broccoli.
Another thing I want to mention that I guess I haven't made clear to all you folks having such fun playing this manipulation game with me, is that I am aware of the1st-person "suggestions" meant for me to absorb unconsciously. I know that the isolation creates a human interaction vacuum meant to make the person "highly suggestible" and thus vulnerable to such things without their knowledge. Hold this thought: I have been conscious of this for some time and have therefore rendered it ineffective. Today a guy--a guy--sat near me at Peet's, and in the middle of phone conversation in another language, said, "I don't belong here." in English. Yesterday, a fella who never comes stopped by the library to use a computer and loudly said completely out of context, apparently to no one in particular, but well within my earshot, "I'm always nervous at the library." Bummer for him, eh? I wonder why. I'm always calm at the library and I do not see at all what might make one nervous just by being there. Last year while I was working on a blog post at a deli on Post Street, a woman came in not long after I got there. She sat right next to me in an otherwise empty room and had a phone conversation in which she said with a little extra volume, "And I'm always nervous." Your game is a joke and so are you.
Folks...I am way past this shit. None of these things effect my decisions, actions, or most definitely my thoughts. I do not communicate this way and I recognize none of the content of such suggestions as valid or consequential in any way. Walking quickly or standing nearby while wearing extra heavy perfume or cologne doesn't effect me either. Other times they'd send people with terrible B.O. in reaction to something I did. People acting strangely when they've got me "cornered" in the elevator doesn't effect me either. All, subtle input meant to manipulate by way of positive or negative reinforcement made effective by the vacuum created by the isolation. I see all. It does not work! My message has gotten through. Please stop wasting your time. I can tell that the positive feeback I'm getting today is aunthentic. It's all over but the cryin'. I'm not your fuckin' toy and you're going to learn that.
In another cryptic hint, my brother-in-law once said, "You have to pick a side." Indeed, it appears that part of the goal of all of this is to pigeon-hole me into joining some "secret group" to take part in these stupid political spy games by harassing me. I like to write and I read a series called "Best American Essays." When you write you become analytical and see things that other people do not. You look at both sides. Adam Gopnik touched on this in intro to a recent edition of the collection when he wrote that a writer inherently sees something "silly in the business of taking sides."
But...since you insist...
Broadly, the main group I identify with is a diverse one made up of non-discriminatory, open-minded, educated, intelligent high-level media and journalism professionals who are positively above all these stupid-ass, petty little gender/race games. Male, female, black, white, in the bulk of my professional experience all of these things simply were not issues, and those folks will peg you as discriminatory the second you walk in the door. I got along great with female superiors and a diverse set of co-workers, and my career was going just fine, but some far-right folks were worming their way into my life and eventually I ran smack into a Nazi who harassed me into losing my last job. This story is the "case of 1845" on its way. I promise you, you are going to love it and look at me differently once you've read it. They played me good and hard. The whole thing is a scam. Also, through all that time, I was subject to a steady stream of the covert psych stuff like the 2 women having the conversation at BW3 about how worthless a Communications Degree is. It's such a good example of what they do. I was specifically targeted without my knowledge and it wore on me. I didn't know. Now I do.
The seed of all of this is a mixed relationship, but I am fully aware that the main fuel that continues to drive it is Schadenfreude that just rains on me because of envy, making it that much more important that I get in with my crew. Indeed, it's an attack on me just for being me. Johnny no like that. More specifically, then, I identify with the men within that media group, but let me tell you this: In my professional experience, the men and women joke to each other about gender/sex issues because of the sheer pettiness of it. Yes--I was accepted in that group and I will return to it. Like I said...I'm gettin' in with my crew. We're above harassing people and I'd take 10 of us over a 100 of you any day of the week. I repeat: the right people are hearing my story and I'm getting authentic positive feedback. Deal with it.
Joseph
C. Zoccali, Clearwater, Florida; Rick Wilson,
Niles, Ohio; Christine
Faranda, Cleveland, Ohio; Len Spector; Marc Greece, A&E
Networks; Reverend David Plank, Palatine Bridge, NY; Carrie (Plank) Bruno,
Queens, NY; Cynthia Green,
Tech Recruiter; Sioux
Logan, Red Stream Technologies; Mike Tricario, MTV; Sean Newman, Columbus, Ohio; Jim
Reed, Columbus, Ohio; Zynga; Marty Eggert, Cleveland, Ohio; Kathy Haxton,
Cleveland, Ohio, St. Joe’s Medical Center, Warren, Ohio; Coleman Professional Services,
Warren, Ohio; Laura
McCormick
An
Pham, anpham1111@gmail.com; Anna Stepnova, stepnova@aol.com; Barbara Anne Wolf, wolf.barbara.anne@gmail.com, (415) 812-4926; Brian Montague, jetbpm@aol.com; Charles
Crites, critesfam@sbcglobal.net; EHSOH, lovycera@gmail.com; Elizabeth
Nicolosi, elizabethnicolosi@hotmail.com; Kristy
Guertin, guertk@spu.edu; Meagan Franz, meaganfranz@hotmail.com; Miyako
Abe, mtea2006@yahoo.com; Nora Salah, nsalah01@yahoo.com; Teresa Keller, teresa@rtwwithus.org; Natasha
Warder;
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