Cup-A-Joe

How in the hell did I forget about Cup-A-Joe on Sutter?  Yeah, there's a guy there who thinks he's real cool, tried to interrogate me once and made some kind of comment like, "You still have a chance."  Newflash to Mr. Coffee Pourer at Cup-A-Joe:  Unless you can get me a writing/reporting job with a major news outlet, I can't think of a "chance" that I'd want that you are qualified to provide, so spare me your smug bullshit.  Oh, and there's also the Carrie look-alike there who hit me with one of those mind-conrolling quick-fire questions today immediately upon my finishing a sentence.  And, of course, there was the eyelash-fluttering brunette I pegged the second I saw here who only worked there briefly but hit me with a mini-interrogation the second time we talked.  Yes, it's all gotten quite old.

Yeah...gotta love the rapid-fire questions.  I'm on to that one just like I'm on to the right brain/left brain and double-bind bullshit.  I figured it out while talking to good ol' Brook "Cooley" (The names are cute--in a trite kind of way.) at the Bloggers' Meetup.  Use rapid-fire confusing questions to, in effect, dig a hole into the subconscience and then go for the programming sentences with oddly sequenced phrases.  Dennis from Buffalo did a nice job on that one with his rapid-fire quiz about the relative locations of Youngstown and Cleveland.  And, of course, he showed up at 24-hour Fitness today where I've also recently started seeing ol' Alex who worked at Peet's for a minute and tries to act like a hard ass.  What a joke.  He started going to the gym during the day instead of evenings for no particular reason right around the time ol' Peeping-Tom Don who likes creeping up behind people in the shower and talking about grilled chicken salad, stopped going.  I know, Don--for a guy my age, my ass is still in decent shape, but despite some crazy things that get said, I don't swing that way.  Sorry about that, bud.  And, of course, ol' Chris showed up at the gym with his little smirk today, too. 

Like it says in Hassan's book, there's nothing magical or mystical about this childish mind control game.  It's all quite simple, actually:  Isolate the person with defamation, destroy their self-esteem and sense of self with a steady stream of verbal abuse while establishing the ol' "direct line to the subconscience," right, Pete "Heldman?" (Yet another Michigan fan.  The truth is, Ohio State spanks the Wolverines so handily and regularly, I don't mind seeing their fans at all.  I know why you do it, though.)  If that happens to fall apart later, just try and re-dig the hole with rapid-fire confusing questions like Brook Cooley that night. 

Oh, and what about Heide from way down in Alabam on her 2-week little personal vay-cay to SF?  I do not now nor will I ever accept the ridiculous, self-serving (for you) argument that if someone values privacy they must have something to hide.  Oh, what a load of stupid fucking horse-shit that is.  Oh, but she says there are people with no privacy who are rich.  Eric likes running his mouth about rich people who live in Mexico.  Oh, what else?  Everyone's always suggesting all these fantastice things that never come true.  Yep--I bought it for a while.  You made a joke out of me for a good long stretch.  Congratulations on a job well done.  Just understand that I am of the mind that anyone who gets satisfaction out of doing it is mentally sick.  A person just must have better, more constructive things to do.  I repeat: it doesn't take a man to be part of such a large group fucking with one guy's head and trying to blackmail them.  And if the issue is behavior modification or worse yet, "thought reform,", please understand that no one tells me what or how to think. The bottom line is I figured it all out and I'm not sure how I forgot this:

He who promises much, promises nothing. 

I never, ever asked for or agreed to any of this shit while knowledgable of the mind control aspect as fully as I am now.  You successfully tricked me into thinking I wanted it.  I figured it all out and I'm done with the game.  I am not pursuing or interested in what has been suggested.  Of course, when I figured out what ol' Steven "Heitman" was talking about, I was just excited because it was only recently then that the overt stalking had ended.  You know--the ol' emotional pendulum.  Yeah, I got that one, too.  I was caught up in the moment and the realization of what he meant without understanding the mind-controlled "slave" aspect of it.  I'm not cut out for it and I've never been interested.  I know you've been using me for years without my knowledge.  Also, since I suspect the group would accept, and possibly has accepted my brother, I definitely want no part of it.  I realized recently that a big goal of mine is to be as unlike him as possible and I recall him making comments and doing things--i.e. jumping up to run out the door only saying, "I gotta go."-- indicating that he's in the organization.  He's perfect for it.  He's a born liar and he needs it for validation to make him feel, um... "big" and, dare I say it...intelligent?  I, however, do not.

No thanks.

Double-bind this.

(It's amazing what an advantage there is to be gained from being open to suicide.  (Is my figuring that out part of you "helping me grow?")  I get the feeling this has something to do with the constant promotion of the precious convention of surviving simply for survival's sake.  It's why you see homeless people walk around looking proud, thinking, "I'm a survivor!"  It's the biggest mind-fuck of them all--next to marriage, maybe. ;-))

Joseph C. Zoccali, Clearwater, Florida; Rick Wilson, Niles, Ohio; Christine Faranda, Cleveland, Ohio; Len Spector; Marc Greece, A&E Networks; Reverend David Plank, Palatine Bridge, NY; Carrie (Plank) Bruno, Queens, NY; Cynthia Green, Tech Recruiter; Sioux Logan, Red Stream Technologies; Mike Tricario, MTV; Sean Newman, Columbus, Ohio; Jim Reed, Columbus, Ohio; Zynga; Marty Eggert, Cleveland, Ohio; Kathy Haxton, Cleveland, Ohio, St. Joe’s Medical  Center, Warren, Ohio; Coleman Professional Services, Warren, Ohio; Laura McCormick

An Pham, anpham1111@gmail.com; Anna Stepnova, stepnova@aol.com; Barbara Anne Wolf, wolf.barbara.anne@gmail.com,  (415) 812-4926; Brian Montague, jetbpm@aol.com; Charles Crites, critesfam@sbcglobal.net; EHSOH, lovycera@gmail.com; Elizabeth Nicolosi, elizabethnicolosi@hotmail.com; Kristy Guertin, guertk@spu.edu; Meagan Franz, meaganfranz@hotmail.com; Miyako Abe, mtea2006@yahoo.com; Nora Salah, nsalah01@yahoo.com; Teresa Keller, teresa@rtwwithus.org; Natasha Warder; 

Kathleen Kashay; Erica Agyeman; Darcy Estes; Alison Victor; Tracy Dietz; Kaitlin McGaw; 

.

.

Mind Control

The evolution of this situation is positively intriguing.  It seems that the only place I go regularly where these cult, etc, operatives still covertly harass me is Peet's on Turk Street.  Let's see...there's the black psychotic radical feminist who carries a book about goddesses and inisists that she and I know each other when, in fact, I don't even know her name and have never spoken to her.  I see her in the morning with her husband whom she's apparently beaten down to nothing more than a shadow of his former self.

Mornings there I also see a very, very white creepy lookin' dude who arrives on a bicycle  right around the time I do.  He's given me that creepy "I'm part of it, but I'm not talking." look as well.

Nights, I see a guy there who kind of has similar features to me but isn't nearly as tall.  He's made comments for me to overhear such as, "You can't win." and "Just waiting it out."  You've got a lonnnnng wait, kiddo.  I'll have to tell Victor what this guy's all about.

Anyway...I've finally put it all together.  My brother, a Scientologist, and my brother-in-law, a white supremicist cop used abusive mind control tactics on me without my knowledge over the course of several years in addition to using the web to frame me for some serious things, all motivated by envy and core fundamental politics.  Blah, blah, blah, you've heard it a dozen times.  Most of it's over anyway.

I'd seen this mind control web-page months ago, but hadn't read it until recently.  Sure enough, it mentions Scientology and the KKK.  Also, the intro to Steve Hassan's book, Combatting Mind Control, confirmed my suspicions that cults use mind control and defamation programs to isolate and blackmail "talented" people into joining them.  I had suspected that various nut-bag groups were doing this to me.  It turns out that some high-level federal law enforcement-type groups are in on it, too, but again, they all like to remain anonymous.  So, where the situation is at now, basically, is that there are various cults and high-level groups playing a game with me, keeping me desparate to see who can successfully blackmail me.  They're all capitalizing on the mind control and abuse that had already been started.  Well...if you actually think I might give into this coersion for any reason, please, think again.  I came to the conclusion long ago that the sanctity of my mind is #1 no matter what, and it was only recently that I figured out the multiple aspects of the mind control, multiple induced obsessions being the main one.  Then I read the above mind control link.  I'm also reading Terror, Cults, and Mind Control, which again, has confirmed some things I'd already figured out.  It's great when it works that way. 

You fooled me for quite a long time.  I hope you enjoyed it.  If there's a group or person who thinks I'm so "talented" and wants my help, you will address me in a direct, open, professional manner.  I'm not interested in being part of one of the many crazy covert groups sabotaging each other.  It's all quite childish.  I do not deal with covert attempts at coersion and blackmail.  It's just that simple.  Along the way, it has been suggested that I'm being "tested" for something or that the whole thing is a "game" kind of like the Michael Douglas movie.  (I didn't realize until now that Sean Penn is in it.  I'll have to check it out.)  Well...fuck you and your test or game.  I'm done with either.

Oh, yeah...there's also a girl calling herself Barbara working the desk at EDD.  How long will it take before you figure out tha I'm never, ever going to acquiesce to this treatment?  I'm never going to fall for any absurd suggestions that everything that has happened to me is somehow justified or is helpful to me.  I will not fall for any suggestions downplaying the sheer egregiousness of the life and privacy violations and abuse I've been subjected to.  I will not be swayed from the knowledge that I never asked for or deserved any of it.  I know that a major part of the mind control is piling lie upon lie and backing each of those up with another lie.  I know that alternating threats and fantastic promises that never get fulfilled are a big part of it, too.  I know I was made the subject of a multi-faceted psychological study.  I know that it went on for years before I realized it.  I know that you tried real hard to destroy my mind and drive me insane.    I know the Florida flunkie and the RAT are the source.

I have disabled and/or neutralized all aspects of the mind control, particularly the multiple induced obssessions.  I understand that there is no shame in one person succumbing to such and evil thing as long as I did at the hands of so many.  It does not take a man to take an active part in inflicting this kind of treatment upon someone.  In fact, I think you have to be pretty pathetic to do it.

A 60 Minutes Producer is following my Linkedin Profile.  Maybe it means nothing; maybe it means something.  Take your chances.

Ahhhh, one more thing...my psychotic radical feminist biological mother, Kathleen Kashay of Bazetta, Ohio, is behind all of this, in part, too.  I know why you gave me up, you miserable, angry pscyho, you.  I'm glad you can't live with yourself.  You deserve it.  I went out of my way to spend time with you when I knew you were nothing but a complete nut-bag. 

Joseph C. Zoccali, Clearwater, Florida; Rick Wilson, Niles, Ohio; Christine Faranda, Cleveland, Ohio; Len Spector; Marc Greece, A&E Networks; Reverend David Plank, Palatine Bridge, NY; Carrie (Plank) Bruno, Queens, NY; Cynthia Green, Tech Recruiter; Sioux Logan, Red Stream Technologies; Mike Tricario, MTV; Sean Newman, Columbus, Ohio; Jim Reed, Columbus, Ohio; Laura McCormick

An Pham anpham1111@gmail.com; Anna Stepnova , Barbara Anne Wolf ,  (415) 812-4926; Brian Montague , Charles Crites , EHSOH , Elizabeth Nicolosi , Kristy Guertin , Meagan Franz , Miyako Abe , Nora Salah , Teresa Keller teresa@rtwwithus.org; Natasha Warder;

Kathleen Kashay; Erica Agyeman; Darcy Estes; Alison Victor; Tracy Dietz; Kaitlin McGaw;

.